Beginning of 2010

Well, the New Year started not as I was hoping it would.
Most of you already know "the story" which actually may not be of such an importance, but had a big influence on me..
To make a long story short, in September I "made a wish" - on a piece of paper I wrote down what kind of job I'd like to have (ok, here's a secret: I reeeeaaaally want a job in either a Russian company working with US, or a US company having business in/with Russia, a kind of job that would give me opportunities to travel often to the States, this is just sitting inside of me and I can't help it). That time I had no idea how to make this happen and where to look for a job that would combine all the things I put on that paper...
But since then I started to see opportunities close to this "dream job", like I was offered 2 volunteer jobs in USA, but unfortunately I can't afford having a volunteer job :( Although none of them felt like "the one", but I had a feeling I'm on the right way..
In the beginning of December I saw an opportunity that made my heart jump out. A US company Pandigital Inc. located in Dublin, CA is expanding it's business overseas and is searching for a trainee from Russia to enter Russian market to do a 6-12 months traineeship in California and then if everything goes good - get hired with the company and possibly keep working for them in Russia and yes - it is international marketing exactly. It took me about a week to realize that this opportunity combined a lot of things I deep inside have always wanted. I applied and easily made it through 2 interviews and 1 "personality check". I say easily because after each interview I thought I failed, but out of 100 applicants I made it down to 2 and... got rejected just when I was so close. I was so positive and happy about the opportunity that I was sure it is mine. Of course I was anxious too because it would take some great changes in my life, but I'm feeling stuck at where I am right now, so I was ready to make this step.
I don't know what went wrong, but I also know that anything is possible it's just hard to keep trying after failing so bad. So going through a lot of "why's" I think this was some kind of a test to see if I'm serious about this "job abroad" thing and also to get my dreams back on the surface.
Ok, done, understood.
Give me another opportunity and I'll take it right away! ;)

This made me more determined and... I mean I even went to a kickboxing class today!!

"Determination. The will to endure to the end, to get knocked down seventy times and get up off the floor saying, “Here comes number seventy-one!”"

(hope I'll have less than 70 ;))